Posted by: Ana
February 8, 2015
“Don’t you think that I just miss you and am completely at ease with seeing you again! Actually, I am terrified – because in such a short time strong feelings started taking shape; because although we did not see each other for so long you still have an emotional impact on me; because wanting you near me has almost an organic way of manifesting itself (my body remained with the print of your touch and longs for that closeness until it almost hurts).
So no, I am not impatiently waiting for our encounter! I am nervous and I become agitated only thinking of it. But this happens because your presence impelled me to see what’s wrong, why am I not really happy and blooming in all areas of my life – because all I want is to share the sparkle, the light, the joy and the love with you, and everybody else! All I really want is to be good to you, and everyone around me. I don’t want to carry any scars or disappointment, any problems or anger anymore. I want to be free!
Healing must take place now. This is what naturally follows after awareness; after digging and confronting; after realizing and accepting; after remembering and forgiving.
This is a process, it will not happen overnight. And it will not be easy – because we’re so used to postpone it, to immediately find another focus, to run from it. It will make us shudder, it will challenge us. It will break us and burn us. And after this death a new life arises.
But the first thing that we do, impulsively, is to isolate ourselves; to try and figure things out by ourselves; we may talk with close friends searching for a feedback or an advise, but never share what we’re going through with the person who provoked this change in us, never with the person we care about!
And the consequence of this is distance, confusion, sadness, dissatisfaction. And the need to withdraw, to be alone. When exactly in these moments it’s critical to share! Share what we’re experiencing regarding our thoughts and feelings.
There is a time to be alone. But I feel that right now the time is for togetherness – surely not the one that I mentioned before, with the joy and sparkle, but a tender and comforting one. There’s so much power in knowing that we don’t have to be alone in this: we can consider ourselves allies, friends, accomplices, confidants. So that afterwards we can enjoy ourselves as radiant beings, lovers, partners in crime. That’s one of the many reasons why we share this incredible connection, to also ease the rough times. So I’m not talking about the kind of togetherness that melts both of us in one, but the kind of one that gives us relief and hope. And, with this background, we can easily take responsibility for our “own” issues.
Our brief encounter changed everything for me… not only do I feel that I’ve known you my whole life, but meeting you motivated me in taking a closer and deeper look into my soul. Magic happened, because nobody “convinced” me to go to the root of my (blurred) dissatisfaction of life – which I did not even fully admit.
You, through your light and easiness of life, inspired my transformation. For the first time in years I’m starting to have courage and power of will, and want to embrace change. Because now I realize I deserve a healthy and fulfilling relationship and life. I deserve to be harmonious and happy. I deserve affection, intimacy, romance and love.
Until now, I was only chasing shadows. Now, I’m living a dream. So thank you, my love, for being you. And thank you for believing in me. I adore the simplicity of being together, the most natural thing in the world! Simplicity equals fulfillment. What is natural is meant to be.” – Memoirs, from yesterday
“You don’t measure love in time. You measure love in transformation. Sometimes the longest connections yield very little growth, while the briefest of encounters change everything. The heart doesn’t wear a watch – it’s timeless. It doesn’t care how long you know someone. What the heart cares about is resonance – resonance that opens it, resonance that enlivens it, resonance that calls it home. And when it finds it, the transformation begins…” – Jeff Brown